It's the last...

This is it. The last week. Today is the last Tuesday that I won’t have a son. Sometime next Tuesday, Jack will be here. Of course, it could happen before that, but I highly doubt it. I think I’ll make it to the 11th no problem. Actually, I’ll make it to the 10th and go into the hospital that night and they’ll start the induction process.

I’m having issues with the whole “last” thing. Last weekend was the last weekend that Chris and I have all to ourselves (since my mom’s coming into town on Saturday). That was incredibly hard. I can’t really explain the emotions other than simply putting it like this: Chris and I have been together for 13 years. It’s always been me and him. If I didn’t love Chris with all my heart and soul, and know that he loves me, I would never have had thought about having a child with him. It doesn’t matter how excited and thrilled I am about Jack – it’s extremely difficult for me to thinking about the dynamic of our relationship changing, even if in my heart I know it’s a change for the absolute best. I hope that doesn’t make me sound like a bad person or a bad mom.

ANYWAY – the last few days are going to be busy. The nursery is done! Well, I still have to hang pictures on the wall, but that’s it! We have a diaper bag (Skip Hop Dash Deluxe in Cherry Bloom, in case you were wondering), but still no glider for the nursery. (I guess I shouldn’t have said it was “done”…) We moved my big Crate&Barrel chair from the living room into the nursery, so that will work for now. I have two more doctor’s appointments – one with Dr. Korotkin on Friday and one with Dr. Nezhat on Monday. Friday is my last day at work until the middle of July. Monday night, I will be admitted to Northside Forsyth sometime after 6PM. And then, it’s just when Mr. Baby Jackson Man (Anne Marie’s nickname for him) wants to make his grand appearance.

It’s crazy to think that this time next week, I could be holding my baby. Or I could still be waiting. Or I could be in the middle of labor, screaming my head off.